It’s all out in the open now and I feel like a weight has been lifted.
I’m bowing out of the fabulous Hollyoaks.
Not for any particular reason other than the time felt right. I’ve spent nearly 8 years there, that’s longer than I was at high school and that felt like ages!! I’ve been given the chance to tackle some brilliant storylines whilst I’ve been there and I’ve learnt so much about myself and about my profession in the process. It’s been a dream working there and I want to thank everyone I met on the way, my experience would not have been the same without you!
My last episode airs the 30th of this month so please stay tuned 📺
I’m not giving up acting, I can’t, I’m not qualified to do anything else (in fact I’m not sure I’m qualified to act). I’m just now actively looking for my next adventure which feels really weird as I’ve never been in this situation before. I quit university for Hollyoaks so I’ve always been doing something, until now. Unemployment does suit me though 🙈.
It’s given me a chance to solely focus on my training which is nice. I get up in a morning and my main goal is to get into the gym and get stronger which has put me in such a positive place. I really like how I feel at the moment which is strange for me as I’m normally quite a negative person HA!
I may have became a little bit cocky with my squats lately, so they decided to show me who’s boss and reminded me that I need to concentrate before I go into a lift. I put 110kg on my back and stepped out like it was 80kg, dropped to the floor and had to grindddddd to get it back up. I did it though. 110kg for two sets of three, the second set was definitely stronger than the first once I’d given my head a wobble.
My diets been pretty decent this week though I have had a serious craving for ice cream for the past few days. I decided to treat myself on Sunday evening to a Creme Egg McFlurry. I drove all the way to McDonalds to be told they’ve ran out 😰. Fewwwwwming I took myself to Tesco Express where I was introduced to Halo Top ice cream!! Now that is something special!! 320 calories in a full tub!! A FULL TUB! I only ate a third of it too so probably had a quarter of the calories I would have eaten if I’d been able to have my McFlurry. Winning!
Feeling smug with my Sunday night find and sitting around 56kg is finally getting me excited for the Greater Manchester Championships. I’m not putting pressure on myself this time round and I think that’s made such a difference. I was such a recluse at the beginning of the year solely focused on the British and it didn’t help me at all so still seeing friends and making plans with healthier choices has mentally put me in a better place.
I’ve got to understand that this is now a lifestyle change, I can’t keep working my bollocks off for a competition then ballooning once it’s done. I’ve got to keep a steady weight throughout the year and I’ll be so much more confident in myself.
Whilst I’ve got your attention (well I’d like to think I have) I just want to say thank you. If you’ve read this chances are you’ve taken an interest in my blog, you follow me on social media, you’ve watched Hollyoaks or you’re a bloody good friend. Whichever it is I am truly truly grateful! Im about to jump into the unknown and its pretty daunting so please stay tuned and see where this very odd career choice takes me next. I’ll keep you all updated.
Thanks again for reading.
Love J 💌