Sometimes you have to weigh up if things are worth it. Do you go all out and enjoy it, or if you restrict yourself will you look back and regret it? I’ve had a weekend where I had to ask myself this question a couple of times.
I have had a weekend at the most gorgeous Spa Hotel in Penrith, where I decided I can still enjoy myself whilst making good choices. Normally on weekends like this I will just sit and eat and drink and eat and drink but I did that in Wales and I didn’t feel good because of it. I may have turned a corner with the whole binging thing which is a massive step for me as I don’t think I have a very healthy relationship with food. As I’ve said many times, I’m all or nothing. So to go away and enjoy delicious meals, still drink alcohol and not come away 2kg heavier Is a pretty good achievement for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still sitting at 57kg, I haven’t lost anything, but to not gain anything either is a Brucey bonus. I still drank, a lot 😬 but I just stuck to Gin and slimline tonic. No sugary cocktails and i swapped the fries that were supposed to come with my seafood grill for green beans. Though I did have a Sunday roast with all the trimmings but we had just tracked up Aira Force and the Gowbarrow in Ullswater so it was well deserved. Everything is about balance!
Also, I’ve managed to secure a place on the Greater Manchester championships comp at the end of April, so having that in the back of my mind has focused me more. I refuse to mess it up this time. I’ve not competed since last June and I need to get back on that platform. 7 weeks out 5kg to lose 💪🏼.
My diary is manic this March, I hadn’t planned on competing so soon after the British so March was my time off to enjoy. Every weekend I’m either away, or at a party, I’ve got meals booked midweek and a couple of trips planned to London. Now I have a competition in April I’m going to have to still enjoy all my arrangements whilst being good. It’s gone from being a relaxing, fun month to being challenging.
I’ve also realised I put so much pressure on myself. I probably don’t help matters the amount of stressing I do before a competition. I forget why i started in the first place and it all just ends up about numbers. Ive decided to enjoy my next competition and not go into it with any expectations, it would just be good to actually complete it 😂🙈.
I’m back into a routine with my training, starting a new plan is exciting and I’m looking forward to seeing if my deadlift finally increases 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼.
Love J 💌